I have had a few weeks of being quiet — and some of that is the incessant trauma responses that I continue to deal with. But, as Between Trust and Trauma is about to be lifted into a much more present entity in the arena of mental health abuses in Flagstaff, AZ and beyond, I have also stopped to ask myself a few questions about the long term position this platform should occupy.

Based on conversations with several dozen people who have dealt with horrific mental health abuse, there is a distinct throughline that we rarely talk about.

I call this the “soft” abuses that frequently accompany just about any wrongdoing in the mental health field.

It is the gaslighting in mental health care, the DARVO, the weaponized diagnosis, and the weaponized, altered medical charts. It is the casual civil rights abuses that institutions commit, followed by the systemic distortion of charts to justify their actions after the fact.

And it is the absolutely pathetically anemic “oversight” that is designed to protect the institution no matter how cruel they are. In fact, it is the institutionalized cruelty that is utterly ignored by oversight bodies because they dismiss it as “just hurt feelings” — excuses masquerading as acceptable behavior, no matter how cruel and how harmful the impact.

This is what Between Trust and Trauma will respond to. We operate in the explicit acknowledgment that these “mental health” organizations sometimes break and destroy people with their machinations, rather than help them. I would argue that some of our most broken, mentally ill street population just might have been through this institutional gauntlet — and will never get back to who they were prior to this abuse.

Secondary to this focus, I am not going to lie; it is my explicit goal to break The Guidance Center away from the Northern Arizona Regional Behavioral Health Authority (NARBHA).

Based on my own experiences, plus dozens of conversations with other victims of The Guidance Center in Flagstaff, AZ, it is my absolute belief that the leadership of both NARBHA and The Guidance Center are utterly and completely morally, ethically, and humanly corrupt. In my opinion they run these organizations exclusively to maximize money for themselves — a financial focus that is clearly documented in the ridiculous and excessive salaries reported on their 2023/2024 IRS Form 990 filings, the public financial disclosures required of all nonprofits.

I have seen no signs that they possess morals, ethics, or goodness of spirit. I am no longer open to any negotiations with either organization for any sort of superficial betterment, because it is my belief that this level of corruption cannot be worked with from the inside. My explicit goal is to break these two interlocking boards apart.

I am well aware that there is no guarantee that any different organization that might swoop in to run TGC will be any better. But in the hope of improvement — and in the hope of basic ethics, transparency, and honesty — it is now my mission to interrupt this top heavy, unethical partnership.

I am aware of the magnitude of this goal. Impacting two powerful, multi-million dollar monopolies in Flagstaff, AZ is a huge task for one whistleblower sitting in her truck. I am aware that this goal might take years — and I am here to see it through.

What happened to me should NEVER happen to anyone. Not Once, Not Ever — and the fact it happened once is enough on its own to stop this dynasty from continuing on.