Ing Says: Talking about past trauma is ridiculous when you traumatize me in the present
The Guidance Center says this is all trauma. They’re right — my efforts are 100% trauma based. But they’re also missing the point. This isn’t just past trauma they can file away in a chart. This is current and ongoing trauma — trauma that began in May 2024 with my PAC stay at The Guidance Center in Flagstaff, Arizona, and trauma that has never once been acknowledged, respected, or treated with dignity. When harm is current, talking about “healing the past” is absurd. First, the present harm must be acknowledged. Then, and only then, can a safe space be created for genuine healing to happen.
The Language of Trauma
Trauma has its own language. The language of trauma is:
- Acknowledgement
- Respect
- Dignity
- Genuine care (I said GENUINE)
- Curiosity
- Self-determination
- Being seen and heard
No one at The Guidance Center speaks this language — not proficiently, not fluently, perhaps not even at all. If anyone at The Guidance Center wonders when I will stop, the answer is incredibly simple: I will stop when I feel heard and seen. Not before.
Trauma keeps me awake. Trauma keeps me fighting. Trauma keeps me alert to danger. And until the harm is acknowledged, I cannot — and will not — stop.
Lawyers would probably tell me not to say this in public. They’d call it giving away my strategy. But the truth is, I know The Guidance Center won’t use this knowledge. Their entire framework is built on one principle: never acknowledge harm. Not ever. Not for any reason.
I Am Not Chaotic
I am not chaotic. My writing is on point. I am deliberate. I am organized. I am aware of my interactions with other trauma survivors, and I know exactly what I am doing. If The Guidance Center sees chaos, it is only because they do not understand the language of trauma. As a trauma survivor, I have already lived my worst fears — not once, but several times. I have stood up after terrible assaults that left me literally and mentally bleeding on the ground. There is nothing The Guidance Center can do to me that I haven’t already survived. There is nothing they can take from me that I haven’t already lost.
Standing Together
Right now, I am helping other survivors do what I have done: find their voice, tell their stories, file their complaints, and stand together. I am a trauma survivor. I speak the language of trauma. The Guidance Center and NARBHA Institute do not speak this language. They are too unwilling — or too nitwitted — to learn it, or even to hire someone who can.
And that is why I will not stop.
